I’ve been gone a long time. Since 2016. With everything going on with me I think I just couldn’t process it in writing. I feel like I’m ready now to get back to this blog on a somewhat regular basis. So here is a short and sweet update of what has happened over the last two years.
- I won my SSDI case. The judge ruled in my favor and gave me four years of disability. I’m receiving benefits and am on Medicare. This has been an amazing help. The fact that I have to go back in a couple years and fight for it again has, however, been a constant cloud over my head. My depression and anxiety will never be cured. Even electroconvulsive therapy just manages my severe depressive episodes for a limited amount of time. My doctors and therapist think it is impossible that I will ever be able to return to the workforce. Yet, rather than give me permanent disability I was given a limited time. So this is not the end, only a reprieve.
- I have continued on testosterone for the last two years. So many changes! My voice is so deep and I’m covered in hair. My only complaint is that my facial hair is patchy still. I really would like a full beard but apparently my body isn’t ready yet. Some things on T happened so fast. Some things take a long time. You never know what will be what because it all depends on the individual body responses. Patience is hard but required.
- I met up with my Dad! After 20 years of not talking or seeing each other we have reconnected. He has been amazingly supportive. His change of heart has been…unexpected. I’ll be writing about that experience later.
- I had Top Surgery! On March 19th of this year I had surgery. I’m so happy with the results. I’m still healing. It’s only been, what, six and a half weeks? I’m working on breaking up scar tissue to make sure my scars are as small and light as possible. I’ll be writing a whole post about my top surgery experience later. This will include tips and tricks I learned for the healing process.
So those are the big things. The major happenings of the last two years. Hopefully, I’ll be writing another post soon. I’m no sure on what. I have a lot of ideas. Things like my experience getting top surgery, which would include some words about being a fat guy in the medical system. I want to talk about transitioning at an older age (I’m in my 40’s btw). I want to talk more about balancing mental illness and when I know it is time to go back to ECT. On top of that, I still have all my regular day to day interests that may sneak in. I hope you will come back and enjoy.